To 2015 and beyond!

I have typed out a thousand variations of this post, and yet! None of them work. My feelings for this year are mostly a mix of denial, fear and cautious curiosity (which feelings like that can only lead to one thing: Nutella!) I mean, my senior year begins and I turn 18 (I demand a recount!) and just in the past few days I've been hit with the "WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE!?!?!?" feelings.

(Besides lots of pajama days, I've got no grand plans for my future....In case you were wondering!)

On this January 1st, I have NO idea what is in store for this year. But I know that through God's grace, little by little,  I'll travel far. He's got a plan and a path for me to follow....I'll take it day by day and let you know where I end up.

These things sound cheesy (I can't help myself!) I'd love to fall in love with my life. Even on the most boring days, my life is amazing. Sure it's not perfect, our family fights and I have bad grades and sometimes we run out of chocolate....but I hope this year I'll truly be able to appreciate how blessed I am. Even though we fight, I do have a family! Even though school isn't fun, I go to a great school and have so much support. And yeah, sometimes we run out of chocolate....but thank god I have an emergency stash!

2015 won't be about the latest or the greatest, it'll be about appreciate what's right in front of me. I may not be able to go to New York on a whim, but I have those memories! And those alone are enough....for now ;)!

TURN THE PAGE, A NEW CHAPTER HAS BEGUN,

HERE'S TO THE GREAT MYSTERY THAT IS 2015

A HABIT TO BREAK// I first wrote down "staying up late" and the next one that popped into my head was "stop gossiping"....and then i realized, they go hand in hand! The earlier I go to bed, the less chance I have to stick my nose in other peoples business and the better I feel in the morning. It's amazing how all these things work!

A NEW SKILL TO LEARN// In the past few months it has because painfully obvious that I enjoy singing and dancing....I say painfully because, I'm pretty terrible at both! And while it might be weird to be starting ballet at 17, YOLO! It would be even weirder at 20 so I'm just gonna suck it up and wear tights. Pray for me. ;)

A PERSON TO BE MORE LIKE// I have this wonderful friend named MaryHelen who is literally an angel. And she has this one habit that always leaves us speechless, jealous and determined to imitate. She has this magical gift of sensing when someone needs help (whether its picking up something, saying hello to someone who's lonely or cleaning up) and it's amazing. I'm not sure I can get up to her level this year, but MaryHelen is the person to be in 2015. (Did I also mention, she's 14? And then I question what I've done with my life....)

A GOOD DEED TO DO// 1.) PRAY FOR PEOPLE and 2.) Tell people whom I appreciate, that I appreciate them!

A PLACE TO VISIT// Our travel destinations have been greatly limited (more on that later!) ....sadly my list of places to visit hasn't diminished quite as quickly! I'm really just hoping to explore and appreciate Florida more. (Maybe Charleston? Savannah? Somewhere with good biscuits and gravy.)

A BOOK TO READ// ALWAYS the Bible, because you can never get enough. But I'd like to knock 10 or so of my Goodreads list (aka, my non school list!) Just some nice and cheesy books, you know!

TO WRITE// This is one of those things that sounds great in your head....and really dumb out loud! So I'm just going to keep it secret (like, we all know how well I do with those!) and work on my secret project. Meanwhile, you super sleuths can have a ball guessing what it is!

A NEW FOOD TO TRY// Working on my wife skills, I'm planning on preparing the Thanksgiving feast! Boys like that right? And depending on how it goes, I may or may not leave you all with my number...JUST in case ;).

SIMPLIFY// My wardrobe. I really only wear about 50% of it (and mostly black now, crossing my fingers this is just a "winter" funk!) But regardless, I need to downsize and curate my wardrobe a bit more. Didn't that sound fancy?!

FOR FUN// -Do childish things with my hair! Win the eyebrow game (or at least play it!) and GET A DISCO BALL!!!! WOOOOHOOO!

2015....we can do this! Let's go forward in grace and as always, consume a lot of sugar.

(2015 and 2014 might have more in common than I originally thought!)

"Conduct yourselves with all humility, gentleness, and patience. Accept each other with love."

E P H E S I A N S   4 : 6

B + W on the low down

I am getting to the age where its kind of crucial to know the hip phrases. You know, 21st century slang and all that jazz. But  no, not this unsocialized, awkward homeschooler! not i! Whilst lounging among a multitude of blankets and a cheesy movie buzzing the the background, I make the great mistake of mixing up "keeping things on the down low" and decided to jazz it up and keep things on the "low down"

because you know, humor is my thing.

and by humor i mean unintentionally embarrassing myself!

One: Angie bae being Angie bae

Two: Flowers from Italy because Italy has the best flowers

Three: Vbs and for once I didn't die!

Four: Anna Lee, my first online friend to turn into a real one! huzzah!

You shouldn't be here.

Today is just weird. I physically do not understand leap days. It's one of many things I don't understand. That and helium. Someday, I hope I figure it out. But at the moment, I'm as confused as a water buffalo in New York City. And trust me, the results can't be pretty.

So anyway, we are living a day that shouldn't really be here. We should be in March now. I should have changed the background. But nope, its still February. Or is it? February 29th is sort of like a dropout. It leaves for 3 years and then comes back to collect its fame. Frankly, its just kind of rude. I'm not jazzed in the least.

If you were born on today, I'm sorry. You got ripped off. You were cheated on. Your life is ruined. You have been alive 14 years, yet you are only 10? How is it even possible to deny someone the rights of a birthday?

Life is full of sadness. Today is the perfect example.

Now that we've got this out of the way,  lets do something happy! I'm totally all for happiness. I suggest reading a good book, drinking tea and applying lots of lip gloss.